...and I'm singing it at the top of my lungs, just like J. Hud in Dream Girls.
Have you ever taken a step back and been like, you are really growing up? Well, I've been doing that a whole lot lately. In all areas of my life, things have been changing in ways that I never even thought of, but hey, we don't know it all. HE knows the plans He has for us, and I am 100% okay with that. Now, let me be very clear, it is not always easy.
I used to be a worrier. Like, the thought of things going wrong, not having enough money, doctor reports, and anything else that seemded like the outcome could be "bad" would have me losing sleep, mmkay?
Recently, my job opened a position that I decided to apply for. Because of the postiton that I am in currently, I knew the position was about to open way before it did. During the time leading up to it, I was like..."Oh that's mine", then when it was posted I immediatley began to second guess myself. "Girl, you don't have a bachelors degree(yet), you're not going to get it. I don't have all of the requirements, but have most of them...that should be enough...maybe I shouldn't apply". I called my husband and told him "If I don't get the job I AM LEAVING!" He kindly said "don't make an emotional decision"...MMHMM! Easy for you to say. I've been busting my tail, working hard and I DESERVE that position!
But who said I deserved it? Why was I so vain to think I could tell GOD how to move in my life, instead of letting Him move freely? Now, a few years ago, I would've already been looking for another job, just in case. But, that calm, still response from my husband and my conviction caused me to gather myself rather quickly...and when I say quickly I mean, more like an hour...LOL!
Instead of doing what the previous version of Briana would have done, I took it to God (because I take everything to Him, INCLUDING work). God reminded me to not be anxious for anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present my requests to Him (Philippians 4:6). Whew! Even typing it gives me joy. I normally would have let worry get the best of me but I made the intentional decision to change! I want what God wants for me and I can't have that when I get in His way. So, now, instead of saying I know they better give me this position, I say if it is what God wants and needs me to have, I will have it. One thing I know is that all things work for good...so, I'm not even trippin'! Change may not always be easy, but it's not always hard. Sometimes all it takes is a shift of mindset and the willingness to embrace it. I'm even making some changes to Church Girl Confessions, but I'll tell you about those changes later.
What have you changed lately? What changes are you working on? I'd love to hear from you.